Not My Shadow

You hear me, 
but it is not my voice you hear. 
You see me, 
but it is not me that you see. 
I have stopped 'being' 
for a long time now. 
There are so many voices 
there is so much light. 
The 'enlightenment' blurs my eyes, 
confuses me, abandons me mid-way. 
My thoughts are not mine. 
Everything I am is... 
someone else's. 
I don't have shadows to call my own. 
It is no longer me, 
it is no longer my shadow.

Annifred Solomon